Thursday, July 1, 2010

Thoughts

Los Angeles California Mormon Temple

Yesterday was a great day.

Nee Nees asked to take the girls and have them spend the night and I didn't dare turn down such an enticing offer!

Hubby had to go straight to mutual after work so with the girls gone for the rest of the evening and no hubby to keep me entertained I came to the decision that I needed some time alone in the temple. I have never been by myself; I always have the company of my wonderful husband.

There were four...count 'em FOUR other people in my session and if you know how large the Los Angeles Temple is you know how big those rooms can feel with so little people. Oddly enough it still felt cozy.



Lately I have been feeling that I am kind of a mediocre mother. I lose my patience easily. I am not a great teacher. I am not the best example. Did I mention I lose my patience easily?

I desperately needed this time inside the Lord's house to organize my brain and prioritize my life. There is no better way to do those two things than to serve someone on the other side of the veil.

As I sat in that beautiful celestial room and relished the peace and silence that permeates the building, I began to think of the reasons why I came and the feeling, "I'm not good enough" was quickly replaced with the feelings, "I am an integral part of my family. I am a daughter of a loving Heavenly Father who loves me more than I could ever describe. I am beyond blessed with two beautiful daughters, I have an incredible husband who is an equally incredible father, and this life is for learning and growing and you can't learn without making mistakes."

How blessed I am to have the Gospel in my life! How blessed I am to know my Savior and to partake in the blessings of keeping the commandments. We are all here for a very specific reason and it's very easy to lose sight of what's truly important, but inside the temple it's extremely evident. I know without a doubt that the Gospel is true. He lives, He loves us, He wants us to return and be with Him forever.

Thanks for reading.

10 comments:

Jen said...

Thanks--just what I needed!

whitney said...

You are not a mediocre mother! You are wonderful!
Isn't going to the temple alone a magical thing? Since I was endowed years before I was married, I had that opportunity a lot and I always cherished it. I am glad you got to experience it.
Going with husbands and loved ones it great too :)

whitney said...

IS great, I mean :)

Kelsi {John, Jake, Georgia} said...

thanks for this. i needed it today... you amaze me.

Amanda Howell said...

Thanks for posting.
I'm afraid to go by myself. Never liked being alone anywhere but I will have to become brave enough to try it. As usual you have inspired me. Keep up the good work.

Vanessa said...

Touching post! Thanks for sharing! Perfect, just what I needed to hear! I should go by myself sometime.

Bree said...

Dang it. My mother in law is taking the kids for me tomorrow morning and this is probably what I should do too, but I'm washing the car and going shopping! Now I feel a little guilty! I'm glad you got that opportunity and inspiration! What a blessing the temple really is in our lives.

Lindsay said...

I love going to the temple by myself (and also with Ryan.) Glad you got to go. I so know about the whole no-patience thing. Where do we get that? But we grow with our kids--and a certain little girl of yours gives you a run for your money! :) You're a fantastic mom!

Ashley and Blake said...

Wow! I'm almost in tears. That's awesome and it's so true! You are an amazing person and I'm glad you had that confirmed for you in the temple! this was super inspirational to me with my new little one coming. It's scary, but you're right, life is about learning and growing!

debora said...

You are the perfect mother for those little chicas. They need you!

LW

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