Monday, August 16, 2010

Savoring

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I find her like this all the time.  On the floor, next to the bed. 

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Crap, she caught me.


For many months now, every night before I go to bed I quietly slip into her room and I watch her sleep.  I trace her little nose, kiss her squishy arms and breathe in that unique, sweet, delicious toddler smell.

And every night I think, another night closer.  Closer to where this will no longer be possible.

It's alarming and depressing to see how quickly these girls are growing up.  It's like a part of me is wilting with each passing day.  They'll be teenagers before I know it and I'll be faced with an entirely different set of challenges.   I'll worry about grades, boys, cars, cell phones and puberty and I'll think back to these days and say to myself, I should have savored more.  I should have stressed less, played more, loved more, tickled more, imagined more...BEEN.MORE.  

So now I must go and do just that.  Savor. 

5 comments:

Nathaly said...

I get this exact feeling all the time. It's just this horrible sinking feeling I get whenever something reminds me how fast time is flying by. It's pretty much the saddest thing ever, especially knowing that Eliana is our last. :(

Carolyn said...

NO kidding! I'm trying to enjoy this baby phase more, it goes by so fast. Cute pictures!

Vanessa said...

totally made me cry! :) Thanks for the reminder, I need to savor every moment more too.

Bree said...

I try to watch Elle when she sleeps, but I always wake her up, so I don't do it anymore! Ok, I haven't been blogging in a week, so I am back commenting...It took me like two minutes to figure out who Chuck was. I was like 'why is she letting that guy hold her daughter?' He seriously needs to get rid of that mustache...CREEPY!

Lindsay said...

Awww. It's so true. Seriously, I just wish we could save copies of them at every stage of life that we could go back to whenever we want. Because it's so easy to forget.

LW

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